I have this gut feeling that life is really going to suck here. I have this feeling that I am never going to see john most of the time because earlier we were talking and he was telling me that someone in his unit was asking him if i was independant and he said well we're working on that so that scares me by him telling me that. That right there just tells me that more than likely i wont be seeing him hardly at all and i just dont know if i can handle that or not and that scares me. I am so used to having him the way things have been the past year that its going to be hard to try to adjust to anything else. I am scared i am just going to screw up like I usually do or that i am just not going to be able to handle things all by myself. I am so worried about alot of things but i can't tell john any of this because he would just think i am weak and stupid. I only just wish i could really open up and tell him all of these feelings but he would either get mad or just not listen to what i am saying at all. I am just really unsure if i can readjust to anything other than how its been with us for the past year.
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